Update on Jackson…

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Ok I just want to start this post off with saying it’s late and I’m exhausted so I didn’t proofread this post. Please excuse any spelling of grammatical errors.

If you follow me closely on snapchat and instagram, you saw that a few days after we brought our Jackson home we realized he was struggling breathing on his own. You all have been so sweet and supportive so I wanted to give you all an update on my little guy.

It all started exactly one week after Jackson was born. I woke up early Sunday morning (around 4:30am) and was surprised when I checked my nursing app that Jackson had gone 5 hours without eating (the longest he had ever gone previously was 3 hours). I got him out of his bassinet and started waking him. I changed his diaper, undressed him but I was having a hard time waking him to eat. Once he finally latched, he only ate for about 5 minutes before pulling off to sleep again. This was so unlike him but I figured he was just going through a growth spurt and was really tired. Then another four hours went by and he was still sleeping, not waking to eat. So I tired to wake him up to eat again and the same thing happened, he ate for only five minutes but then after he threw up. My mama alarms started sounding when this happened. I knew something was off.

Right around this time Drew left to go to church is Isla. I was inspecting Jackson, looking at his coloring, I put my finger by his nose to make sure air was coming out. The few times he opened his eyes that morning, they looked really yellow. His coloring didn’t look normal. He looked like something was wrong. I started wondering if maybe he had jaundice. I called the doctor on call and told him I needed to go to the ER immediatley to get Jackson tested for jaundice. The doctor reassured me it could wait until the morning so I decided to not worry about it until the next day.

Shortly after I started feeding him again and he threw up. Again. Then for a second I thought maybe he wasn’t breathing. I called Drew and told him to come home from church and look at Jackson. I was starting to freak out and my mind was racing thinking of every possible thing that could be wrong. I couldn’t quite figure out if I was going crazy or if there was something really wrong with my baby. By the time Drew got home Jackson had finished nursing on the other side and kept it down and was napping so I thought maybe I was just going crazy.

We went up to dinner at my parents house and when we got home we decided to put a monitor on him that we got when Isla was newborn (it monitors babies heart rate and oxygen levels). This is not sponsored in anyway but I owe a lot to this company because I would have never known he wasn’t getting enough oxygen if it wasn’t for this monitor. If you’re interested in it, it’s called the Owlet Monitor. The monitor was on for only 10 minutes before the alarm sounded that his oxygen levels were low. At first I though maybe it just wasn’t reading right, then five minutes later it sounded again. And then two minutes later it sounded again.

I told Drew to put his clothes on, we woke up Isla and dropped her off at my sisters house and rushed to the ER. When we got there I think the nurses thought I was crazy until they hooked him up and realized his levels were too low. They immediately moved us into a new room and we started monitoring him again. There was one point when his levels dropped again the nurse told her assistant to hook him up on oxygen, page a respiratory doctor and a pediatric doctor immediately. After hearing the urgency in her tone I started to freak out. I stood up to pace around and I got so light headed and thought I was going to throw up. I sat back down and could barely lift my head or move my body and I was just sobbing. I have never felt that helpless or worried in my entire life. My hormones were way out of whack and I was watching my 7 day old baby boy be hooked up on all these different monitors. It was absolutely terrifying.

After spending the entire night in the ER, drawing blood, running an IV, doing chest X-Rays and almost being admitted to the hospital, we got to go home for a few hours before heading back to the doctor to see our pediatrician.

That next morning my pediatrician explained to me that either Jackson had under developed lungs that was an oversight in the hospital, he aspirated on breast milk and from that made his lungs swell or get fluid in them so the oxygen couldn’t easily pass through or there could be a bigger problem with his lungs or heart. That whole week we spent in doctors appointments doing more lung X-Rays, heart echoes and other tests. I’m so extremely grateful that all the major issues were all ruled out. The conclusion the doctor came to is he has some fluid in his lungs, he can’t really explain from what exactly and that he needs to be on oxygen until he can keep his levels up on his own.

Jackson has been doing really well this week. We’ve been monitoring him on the pulse ox and he can keep his levels up perfectly during the day but for some reason at night they are still dipping too low so for now he’s still on oxygen at night but hopefully that will only be for a few more days.

I’m sure all of you mama’s know there is no worse feeling in the entire world than seeing your baby suffer. It definitely put me through the ringer but I’m so grateful it’s just a matter of time for his lungs to clear out and other than that he’s perfectly healthy. Thank you all for being so sweet and showing your concern and love. All of your comments were so comforting and I’m so grateful and lucky to have such amazing women (all of you) who read my blog.

xo, Rach

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196 thoughts on “Update on Jackson…

  1. Always trust your gut feelings they’re always right! Your a mother not crazy when you feel something isn’t right it probably isn’t! Thank you for sharing as it sounds like a very stressful beginning for your little guy. He is lucky to have a wonderful mom looking out for him!
    Jill

  2. I can’t imagine what that must have been like! I’m so sorry, and I’m so glad Jackson is doin better. You shouldn’t have to apologize for misspelled words. Us readers should understand! It’s so exhausting to have a newborn, but also the best feeling all rolled into one. ? love your blog!

  3. My heart broke for you as I read your post. I have a 2.5yr old and 10 month old and I hate watching them suffer when they have a cold. I’m a nurse, I see stuff everyday and help people, yet when something happens to my babies-i feel like a helpless mommy. I’m happy to hear is doing better, he’s blesssed to have such a concerened, observent mommy. :) Hope you are settling into a mommy of 2 role-i know its had its challenges starting out, but hope Isla is doing well with the change, too. My oldest didnt and still doesn’t ? Well, will keep u in my prayers. Hang in there, mommy! ❤️

  4. Dear Rachel, I am sending prayers and hugs that wee Jackson recovers quickly and thoroughly. I am a 64 year old woman with two adult children and reading your post brought tears to my eyes. I can totally imagine your fear, trepidation and exhaustion. Please know that you are not alone and that we are all rooting for you.
    Cynthia

  5. So glad to see your baby is doing well. A mothers intuition always knows best. I had a similar situation where my son had a skull fracture from a tire swing hitting him in the head and the doctors tried to tell me he didn’t because he was running up and down the ER halls! Turns out he had a skull fracture, bleeding on his brain, and they ran sported us to a children’s hospital for possible surgery! I am pregnant with my second and will definitely be adding the owlet monitor to my list!!!! I always thought it was a scam, but now I see it actually does something.

  6. Thank you for sharing Rachel. So happy that nothing major is wrong with your Jackson.

    I’m expecting my first baby in about 3 weeks (baby boy too!) and I have no clue how to take care of a newborn (I’ve read books, but still…) and it scares me a bit. I’ll be sure to listen to my mommy gut feelings just like you did if I think something is off.

    xoxo, Lisa-Marie

  7. Just reading this made me cry, so I can only imagine how you felt going through this. I have a 15 month old son, and I can completely relate to your feelings of helplessness when it comes to him being sick. I’m so glad that little Jackson is doing better. He has been on my mind for the last couple weeks. He is lucky to have such a caring and wonderful mama like you.

  8. RAch-

    I read your blog every day and follow you on social media. I’m an older mom and my kids are in college. You’ve been in my prayers the entire time and I will continue to pray for sweet Jackson and your family. Your “mom radar” will always be with you. Even when they grow up and move on!
    Blessings!
    xoxo- Tanya
    http://www.tanyafoster.com

  9. Hang in there Rachel! This is one of those times your own strength will surprise you and carry him. I know that sounds impossible but I’ve been there- rare syndrome, baby in the NICU and I know what it feels like to feel helpless and terrified. You have to believe that there is a greater plan and these little tests will make y’all even more resilient. It’s wonderful you have your family so close by also. My blog and writing helped me so much so try to keep up just when you can even if you don’t post it all- the release is amazing. Hang in there and take care of yourself also so you can care for him! Xoxoxoxo Eloise

  10. Bless you dear. We raised an Asthmatic boy-from birth to age 12 in and out of hospitals. His lung collapsed at age 3.Yes we Mothers know-it’s exhausting BUT they only have us. And yes the nurses sometimes think we are crazy-ignore and go w/ur gut feeling. Good luck and always think positive.Isla is a doll!My word.Jackson will be fine.

  11. Hi Rachel! I have been following your blog since you started it. I have never left you a comment. But I just wanted you to know that my heart and thoughts are with you. I have three girls who are all teenagers now (a whole different set of struggles). But, we had a sick baby as well. I know you are exhausted. But just hold on. These days do pass. And they pass so quickly. Try to eliminate as much from your plate as you can. Let go of anything not necessary. Love those babies fiercely and play with them every day. You are a sweet and lovely lady. Thanks for inspiring us every day with your fashion.

  12. I’m so glad he’s going to be okay, Rachel. I was thinking about you all the time that first week because you’re right… it makes you crazy when you see your child go through something! Thank you for sharing the story with us… that Owlet sounds like an amazing product!

  13. I’m so relieved that Jackson is doing better! I was worried about your little guy. He’s very lucky to have a strong attentive mama like you. Soon he’ll be running around with Isla and it will be hard to believe this ever happened. :)

  14. When my son was born and we finally brought him home, every night time feeding for his first 3 days being at home was a nightmare! Every time I fed him, he’d turn blue, gag and projectile vomit. I didn’t sleep. I would lie down with him on the couch, have him sleeping on the pillow next to my face. I’d doze off, wake up to check him and he’d be in mid gag. My best friend had a daughter who had acid reflux and I remember her doing the same thing. After three sleepless nights, and being a completely hormonal basket case- I called my pediatrician on the way to his office and said, ” I’m coming in something is very wrong with Ethan!” I was in tears. Exhausted and scared out of my mind. When he laid him down to check him, he made this ” ha ha ha” noise. So the doctor asked if he does this after eating. I didn’t even hear it. He said he’s got acid reflux. Ethan was born 2 weeks early and he felt his epiglottis wasn’t mature enough to cover his trachea and esophagus and he’d spit up after each feeding. We ended up at a specialist and they did a bunch of tests. And concluded it was acid reflux. I had to put cereal in his bottles. It had to bulk up enough for his stomach to help push the epiglottis closed. Along with medication for acid reflux. He’d have to be held upright at a 45 degree angle for 30 minutes after eating so he could digest his feeding. I just remember thinking thank god it was nothing that didn’t have to be treated with surgery. I was so glad to see him do so much better after with the help of the cereal. His specialist said he’d grow out of it once he was able to eat food. And he did. He’s 14 now, healthy, almost, almost, taller than me- and hasn’t stopped eating since! It’s so scary being a parent and feeling so helpless. I’m so glad Jackson is doing better!! Thank you for sharing your life with us! ??

  15. Rach, I’m proud of you for listening to your intuition; it’s God’s way of speaking to you! All will be well with baby Jackson. I’m so happy to hear he’s doing so much better, he sounds like such a little fighter. Take care of yourself during this time as well; you’re just as important!

  16. I have kept your family in my thoughts and prayers hoping answers with solutions were being implemented. Thank you for the update. Such a precious family. You are loved.

  17. No parent should ever have to go through this! My heart goes out to you and your husband and I’m glad that nothing is seriously wrong with Jackson. Prayers to Jackson for a quick recovery. He’s lucky to have such an amazing support system!

  18. This post made me a nervous wreck! From a twin mama with preemie babies in the beginning we were in and out of the ER and I was a nervous wreck from sunup to sundown…always trust those mommy instincts! So glad your baby boy is doing better and you found out the problem early on. I know exactly what you were going through and you are a basket case and you had every right to be! You are a great mommy!

  19. How scary! I totally know how you feel. Thank God Jackson is doing better! Did your doctor say to prop him up when he sleeps, kinda like a premmie baby in his car seat?
    Still lifting your family in prayer,
    V

  20. Wow. Such a terrifying story. I’m glad you trusted your own instincts and didn’t listen to the doctors. I’ve always trusted my own instincts as well, despite what doctors were saying to me, and I’ve always been proven right.

  21. Thank God your little guy is ok. I am an older fan :) love your blog and know how worried you must have been! It is a terrible feeling when you can’t control the well being of your child. Always have faith that things will be ok! The life of a mother is always to worry about her child.
    Enjoy your day!??

  22. Our little girl was on oxygen for the first month and on a heart/breathing monitor the first two months of her life because her O2 sat levels just couldn’t quite stay at 92 or above like they were supposed to. It was seriously the hardest two months always having her connected to wires. But now she’s 2 years old and yells and sings and you’d never know. There is lots of hope, mama! :) You’re doing such a good job!

  23. Having my boy born 7 weeks early and my girl born with viral meningitis (different than bacterial but still deadly to a newborn) put a few Grey hairs on me for sure. Now my 15 year old son is a head taller and my beautiful 13 year old girl is a wonder. Parenthood is such a journey just know that the praying never stops and the love just gets bigger. All the best from one Rachel to another….

  24. Sending prayers and positive thoughts to your whole family! I hope that this soon will all be a distant memory and Jackson will be a healthy baby chasing after his sister.

  25. So glad he is doing better. Very scary for everyone!
    When my second son was born, via caesarean, the had asked me if I wanted to hold him and my mama instincts kicked in and I said no, it sounds like he has fluid in his lungs, they check and said that I was right, I did not see him for 7 hours. I think they can swallow liquid when they are born this way. Two months later he was having trouble breathing due to a cold, he was flown to children’s hospital where they discover his atnoids were big, hence the breathing problem. He is now a handsome 6 foot 5, 24 year old. Listen to your instincts, they are always right.
    PS, you look stunning after just having another baby!

  26. I can’t even imagine how terrifying it was when the nurse ordered the doctors, etc…..but you were so smart to go with your instincts and get him the help he needed. Awesome job momma!! Can’t wait to see more pictures of Jackson when it is time and thanks so much for updating us. Bless you all!!

  27. Thank you for sharing Rachel. I’m so sorry to hear you all went through this. It’s so scary, especially when they’re so little. My daughter was in the NICU for 26 days after she was born at 33 weeks and you never get used to the monitors, wires, breathing masks, etc. I’m glad there is nothing major wrong though and he’ll be better in no time. Hang in there mama!

  28. I´ve reading you for more than 2 years every day! I am so happy to know that your family and your little Jackson its fine. This is my first comment on your blog, I am always a reader not a “comment” person but I just want to tell you that you inspire many women to be entrepreneurs, a good mom and a sweet person. I have a 3 years little gilr I am always happy to know how brave women can be..Always trust your mom instincts, theynever fail. A big hug.

  29. Thank you so very much for the update, Rach. You and Jackson have been on my mind so much. I’ve been praying for Jackson’s health and also for comfort for you and Drew. I’m so very relieved to hear that it looks like he’ll be completely off the oxygen very soon. Sending lots of love!

  30. Mother’s “intuition” is real and a comfort that you have it. Something similar happened to my 2 years old and my husband at first and the nurses at the ER thought I was nuts. But he ended up needing open heart surgery (at 13 days old). If I hadn’t listened to what my body/spirit/mind were telling me, who knows. Glad he’s doing better.

  31. I don’t have snapchat, but read in one your Instagram posts that Jackson was having compilations, but I didn’t know to what extent. I’m so sorry that this little one has been going through this and I can only imagine how you’ve been feeling. Just know that you and Jackson are in my thoughts and prayers, girl.

    XO,

    Jalisa
    http://www.thestylecontour.com

  32. My daughter had fluid in her lungs when she was born and had to stay in the NICU for 5 days all hooked up. It was very traumatic but she is a healthy 8 month old now. Way to catch it & I’m sure your little guy will be 100% soon ❤️❤️❤️

  33. I’m so sorry you’ve been dealing with this- I don’t even know you well, but I’ve followed you a bit on social media and this put a lump in my throat for you- nothing worse than feeling helpless for your baby. Sending love. xo

  34. Hi, I follow you on social media and just read your blog post about Jackson. First, I want to say I’m so glad he is okay. I know what it’s like as my baby girl was in the hospital at two months old. We just knew something wasn’t right and we found out she had urinary reflux. She’s fine now because she takes medicine everyday. Anyways, it’s hard not to worry so much but it’s great that we know when something isn’t right with our babies.

    You’re a great mom :)

    -Mary Ann

  35. I’m so sorry to hear about the scare. That must have been (and must continue to be) extremely scary. Hoping he gets better and stronger soon. Xoxo

  36. I’m sorry you guys had to go through this. It is defiantly very stressful, but most rewarding job to be a mom. Keep up the great work you are amazing!

  37. Thank you for sharing. My first baby was born surprisingly early at 33 weeks. Seeing him hooked up to machines was a pain I never could imagine. 5 years later it’s still incredibly difficult looking at photos of him from that time. I’m so glad they figured out the issue and I hope he is off that oxgyen real soon. Never doubt your mama gut; it’s always right.

  38. Rachel! Im praying for your baby and I dont know you but I know (for some reason) that you are a great mother. All my prayers for your sweet a healthy boy. Greetings from Puerto Rico XO, Mer

  39. Oh my goodness, how frightening! But this makes one think….is this how SIDS happens and you just happen to catch it prior. Bravo to you for listening to your instincts and how fortunate little man is that you are his Mamma Bear!!!

  40. I am so happy to hear Jackson is on the mend. I’m a pediatrician, and I will remember your story the next time I am with a sick baby and his/her parents, and hope to be better about keeping them in the loop and trying my best to calm their worries. Thank you for sharing Rachel!!

  41. I’ve been there. I understand how it feels to feel deep down that something is wrong with your baby and feel the other people think you are crazy. Good job listening to those feelings. You have them for a reason.

  42. Hi Rachel,

    My newborn girl was also in the hospital when she was born for a traumatic birth and she also had low oxygen levels. She is now two (and perfectly healthy) but I will never forget the sheer terror I felt whenever her monitor would go off signaling low oxygen. There’s nothing worse than feeling helpless and watching your baby suffer. I am so glad that he’s doing better and I pray for all of you in this journey. Please feel free to email me if you have any questions regarding our situation or just want to talk to someone that has been there. Take care! ❤️

  43. I can’t even imagine how hard his was for you. I have an 8 month old and I can’t even begin to think how freaked out I would be just days after giving birth. You are a strong mama! And Jackson is a fighter! So glad to hear he’s doing so great!

  44. I’m so happy to hear it isn’t anything serious! I wanted to echo an earlier commenter to suggest you be on the lookout for acid reflux. A cousin’s son had low oxygen levels associated with this. I have no idea why the two can be related but I felt like I should mention it. My daughters had acid reflux and they both started to arch their backs at feeding and did not like laying flat on their backs. Again, it wasn’t serious and both outgrew it but in the case of my firstborn I didn’t have a clue what was going on and wished I caught it earlier. Good luck and God Bless!

  45. This post brought tears to my eyes. I went through something almost exactly the same with my now two year old. He was seven days old and something was just off. We ended up spending a week in the hospital for failure to thrive. It was the hardest thing my husband and I ever went through. I will keep your son and your family in my prayers. Wish you the best. Thank you for sharing.

  46. God bless your mama instincts! You probably saved your son’s life. I wonder if this is what happens when babies get sids? I bet many future mothers will be grateful to know about that product that checks oxygen levels. Again, God bless you and your family.

  47. Glad to here Jackson is doing well ! My daughter turned blue when she was 6 days old (VERY SCARY) ends up she had an ASD (home between the upper two chambers of her heart) she is 27 now and healthy as a horse ! Listen to your mommy instinct and keep a close eye on him ! God bless

  48. As a casual blog reader, can I just tell you that you’re doing an amazing job mama! I have a son the same age as Isla — I know how hard it is just to feed and care for one infant, then throw in health scares and being a mom to a toddler too! Thinking good thoughts for you and your family! Xoxo

  49. Rachel – I am so sorry to hear about your sweet Jackson. I can only imagine how hard it must have been for you so see him struggling. You and your entire family were in my prayers throughout this whole week. You are the best mama and so inspiring to all women out there. Keep doing what you’re doing! Xo

  50. Jackson has been in my prayers! My sister had a similar scare with her second baby so this is all too familiar. So happy to hear he’s on the up and up!

  51. I’ve followed your posts since college and have had your sweet boy on my mind! I’ve never been on the parent side of things, but as a sick “kid” I’ve seen the pain it has caused my parents! I can’t imagine how you must have felt, with him being so little! I wouldn’t wish that on anyone! Def putting the Owlet monitor on my list of things to get for future baby! Will be praying for you and him!!!

  52. That is absolutely terrifying Rachel! I’m so happy that Jackson is ok and you are an amazing Mom… it truly is amazing how Mama Instinct kicks in right. Sending lots of love… XOXO Robyn

  53. I just recently had a baby, and I haven’t been keeping up with your blog as much as I use to. So sorry! Sending you and your family lots of love and well wishes! So thankful to hear that Jackson is doing so much better, and wishing him a speedy recovery. I know how stressful being a mama is, especially when they are first born. Take it easy, and get lots of rest Rach! xoxoxo! Maria

  54. Thank you for sharing your heart-wrenching experience. Life can be so scary and beautiful all at the same time but you are doing a wonderful job my dear. Lots of hugs and love for you and your beautiful family. Us women, we need to stick together and support one another!!! Xx

  55. What a scary time! I can’t imagine how difficult that time was for you. Good job following your mama intuition! I’m so glad to hear that everything is OK with your sweet boy. :)

  56. Thank you for sharing your story! It can be so hard with a new baby to know if you are being paranoid or if something is actually wrong. This proves that following mother’s intuition is always the right choice! xo

  57. I am so glad that everything is getting better with your sweet baby boy! I can relate to your story, I recently found myself in a similar position as you with my baby boy when he was one month old, now he is two months. We ended up in the ER for breathing problems as well one night, and all I can is good for you for trusting your mommy instinct. I am a first time mom and when I knew something wasn’t right with my little one, these mommy instincts kicked in and I am so glad I listened! Thoughts and prayers to you and your beautiful family!

  58. Hi Rach,
    So glad to hear Jackson is doing better! I was wondering what app you use to monitor the feedings. I’ve been using my timer on my phone but I hate it.

  59. You’ve all been in my thoughts over the last few weeks. I hope Jackson’s health is continuing to improve and you can start to relax a bit. It is so awful when things like this happen to your children you just wish you could live their pain for them. It sounds like you’ve had excellent health care though. Stay strong.

  60. keeping you and your sweet baby in my prayers. We took my baby boy to ER for similar symptoms at 10 days old and his heart rate was at 280… Always trust your mom instincts! My sweet boy is now healthy and he is 5 months old. It was the hardest thing I had ever been through but I know it has made me a better mom because of it :)

  61. Thanks for opening up about your beautiful baby boy. I also detected that my baby wasn’t breathing right. No one noticed while they were cleaning and weighing him after I delivered. My baby was whisked to the NICU after I pointed out his inability to breath properly. He is fine now, but it took a while for me to settle from the trauma.

  62. Thank you for sharing. Each mom has their own series of baby illness experiences. Each is terrifying because we feel so helpless. You have a worldwide community of support, hope you know that. Lay low and don’t apologize to anyone for doing it. Family first always. ❤️

  63. Dear Rach, I’m 24 yo and I don’t have my own kids (yet) but I’ve been the nanny for last 2 years and that was enough to get know how do you feel about your baby. I’ve been checking out your Snapchat every 10 mins to get some information how you guys doing. So glad he’s been better for last few days.
    Stay strong mommy!! xo Veronika

  64. I’ve been going brought something similar with my own Jackson! He was born 8 weeks ago and aspirated amniotic fluid during my c-section. We spent about 10 days in the nicu, so I understand completely what you are going through. I’m so sorry you have been having a rough start with your little guy. I’m so glad your mommy instincts kicked in and you knew that something wasn’t right. Time and oxygen will heal him, Mama! Prayers for you guys, as I’m sure mama hormones make this extra tough. ❤️

  65. I’ve been following your story and my eyes have welled up with tears multiple times for you. I am SO happy he is going to be ok. My baby girl was in the PICU for a week with viral meningitis and it was the worst week of my life. I caught it after a thermometer read that she didn’t have a temp but I just didn’t have a good feeling so went out and bought a new one that then showed me I was right. That mama instinct is there for good reason. We know our babies!! Continued prayers for your baby boy!

  66. So sorry you and your baby boy had to go through this. There’s nothing worse that not knowing what’s wrong or what to do to help your child. Praying that it’s all over soon. ??

  67. Rachel, I’m glad your baby is getting better. Your story is very similar to mine: my 10 years old son had the same problem and stayed at the hospital for 7 days after his birth. The reason was very similar to baby Jackson! I know what you are feeling know… But I can assure you this bad time will pass!!! I’m praying for you both!!!

  68. I from Ukraine, read your Instagram two years. I wish to your kid to become somewhat quicker the healthiest kid in the world! Everything will be OK!

  69. Thank goodness for your mom radar and I’m so happy to hear Jackson is going to be ok. I can only imagine how terrifying that must have been. You are an amazing mama and should be so proud of yourself for listening to your mom instinct. I’ll be praying that Jackson gets completely off oxygen soon.

    Also, I got an Owlet as a gift from my sister-in-law, and reading this post makes me even more happy to have it.

    http://www.elementsofellis.com/

  70. I’ll be having my first baby and will definitely be getting an owlet monitor now, thank you! So glad to hear your little peanut is doing better

  71. Awww Great news to know he will be fine. Glad you trusted your instincts…as a mom of 4 I can tell you…mom instincts are ALWAYS right, even when others think we are over reacting, we just know. Thks for sharing your story with us. Hugs to you, Isla, Dad & Dasher boy? You’re doing a great job mom!

  72. You did the right thing trusting your instincts. It sounds like you’re all doing what little Jackson needs right now, and that’s so good! Our little guy, Walter, has had a lot of struggles since he was born and some of them were similar to what you guys just dealt with. trust the doctors, but ask every question that pops into your mind. You’ll be surprised how quickly you see him make progress. Our little guy surprises us every day!

  73. I’m a new mom myself and I cried reading your story. I prayed for you and your baby so much. Our baby had a high fever two weeks old and being in the ER is the hardest watching your baby suffer.

    Continued prayers for you and your family.

    Michelle

  74. Reading this just gave me the chills! i am soooo grateful you had that monitor!!! Oh my gosh. I think back to when my kids were babies and how grateful I was when they slept for long stretches. I am so happy you kept waking him up and had the monitor and that all is ok!!!!! Thx for sharing and go Owlet Monitor!!

  75. Hi Rachel, I have followed your blog for years and absolutely love it–you seem like a wonderful woman! Although I don’t know you personally, I have been praying for your pregnancy and your babies, especially little Jackson. I was teary-eyed reading this post and I’m so grateful to know that he is improving. I will certainly praise God and continue to lift him (and all of your family who are worried sick over him) up in my prayers for a complete recovery. Thank you for sharing this update.

  76. Many prayers for your boy and your whole family. Cannot imagine what it has been for you guys. What a beautiful family you have and you are beautiful inside and out. Hope you can all rest up and all will be well real soon! Lots of good thoughts, love and prayers.

  77. Rachel,

    My son had the same thing happen. They noticed it in the hospital though but in have never been so emotional as seeing your baby hooked up and not knowing if it’s something more. They told me he would probably be off in a few days or a week. He ended up being on it three weeks so don’t be alarmed if it takes Longer than they say. I remember staring at the oxygen level reader. When I look back I realize just how physically and emotionally draining it was. I hope your little guy is doing better and I am so glad you had that owlet thing. Reading your story brings back so many memories and emotions. Thinking of you guys! Xoxo Marissa

    And Liam is totally fine now. It’s very common for boys I’m told. Supposedly white males are the weakest babies.

  78. Hang in there Mama. Yes it can be terrifying to fear for your child’s health. Prayers to healthier lung function at nights. You probably haven’t had a good night sleep, very tough. Good luck with everything.

  79. I am sorry to hear about Jackson but I am glad he is getting better. My own son was born with severe disabilities through a random mutation so we’ve had a lot of experience with respiratory issues and over 80 some hospitalizations in his life. He’s an adult now but he is on night time oxygen due to all of the ventilators he’s been on in his life. The only piece of advice that I will give you, that one of my son’s doctors told me, was that if you are ever unsure it’s always o.k. to go to the emergency room and the worst they can do is tell you everything is okay but there is often time a bigger risk from not going as you found out. I would say in the future when you have a gut feeling that something isn’t quite right, is to trust your gut and to go get it checked out right away. My gut has never been wrong in terms of my son’s illness. The good news is that you were able to get him treated and the big stuff was ruled out:)

    My best guess is that it is underdeveloped lungs as I doubt it’s aspiration from breast milk. My son has had a gazillion in pneumonias in his lifetime so I’m somewhat experienced on that, lol.

    The one thing that works fantastic for pneumonia that has worked great for us is Now Foods organic coconut oil. My son used to be hospitalized a lot for pneumonia and they told him they couldn’t save him anymore. I started him on this organic coconut oil and he went from 5 to 6 hospitalizations a year to only one hospitalization in the last 5 years. It really works! Organic coconut oil is antibacterial, antifungal, antiviral and is fantastic. Plus it’s a food and not a drug and is all natural. The Now Foods brand is the only brand that I like and I’m not affiliated with them in any way. And it must be organic. I would recommend melting some down in a stainless steel medicine cup on the stove (never use a microwave to heat any food because it degrades the food) and once it’s cooled enough, to give it to your son. The amount I would recommend would be similar to the amounts that you would give for Motrin or something like that on the bottle. That is usually an OK amount for an infant. I am not telling you to give Motrin with it I’m just simply saying to give the same type of amount that would be on the box for an infant. I would give that amount and then give the same amount every 6 hours for 2 days. That should clear it up really quickly, probably in only a day. It’s amazing how fast and how well it works. If a child was on formula instead of breast milk, then I would say to make sure that they use an organic formula because you never want any infant formulas with high fructose corn syrup or any type of artificial sugar in them because sugar lowers immunity and will make them sicker. I hope you guys feel better soon. I will say some prayers for little Jackson.

  80. Rach, I’m so sorry you had to go through that. When you were describing how you felt in the hospital having him tested and feeling so helpless, I got teary eyed for you. I’m so glad to hear he’s doing better AND that you trusted your gut and not the Doctors. Not to say that Doctors shouldn’t be listened to or trusted but in fairness, families are another file folder, they don’t the baby as intimately as a parent does. Good for you for controlling the situation, Jackson has a wonderful mama. I pray this issue will very soon be a thing of the past and he will not have to use oxygen at night either. Thank you for sharing with us and take care of yourself. The blog can always wait, just get some sleep and be with those precious babies. xx Karla

  81. Rachel I am so so happy that your little baby boy is so much better. I’ve been praying for your baby to feel better and not to have anything major going on. I am a nurse my self and I wanted to tell you I will keep praying for your angel. God will protect him and everythin will be ok soon. God bless your beautiful soul and your angel.

  82. My baby had pyloric stenosis at 3 weeks and went through surgery. Fixable but totally traumatic to a mom. So glad things are going ok! Positive vibes to all mommas out there!

  83. Something similar happend to my baby girl. The second she was born they noticed she couldnt cry well, they did some tests and told me she swallowed amniotic acid.. Worst day of my life! That is a horrible thing to experience but thank God??? they cleared her lungs.. But she had to stayed in hospital for 8 days!

  84. Something similar happend to my baby girl. The second she was born they noticed she couldnt cry well, they did some tests and told me she swallowed amniotic acid.. Worst day of my life! That is a horrible thing to experience but thank God??? they cleared her lungs.. But she had to stayed in hospital for 8 days!
    Thank God for doctors!
    Praying for baby Jackson!

  85. So glad to see an update on Jackson. I have been thinking of you and your little guy and happy to hear that things are getting better. Although every situation is different, I can certainly relate. The day after my girl/boy twins were born, the head Dr. of the NICU came in to say that Jack :), had been throwing up blood that night. Now he was breach, and inhaled some fluid during the Csection, but they were still concerned and wanted him transferred to a NICU in the city immediately. So my baby was not even a day old when they took him all wired up in an incubator away from me. I had to stay with my daughter. It was some of the hardest 5 days, being away from my newborn. He’s happy and completely healthy now. They overreacted and he was just fine. But yes, it’s truly HEART breaking to see your kids in those situations (tearing up even now after 8 years!). It makes you so feel completely blessed when they are healthy. Keep us posted and praying that every day he’s stronger, and for you too!

  86. Dear Rachel, your story brought tears to my eyes but I have faith in God and that everything will be ok in no time! I have been praying for you and little Jackson and will continue to! Hang in there strong mommy, you got this!! Just look at all that you’ve accomplished in your life!!! I am so proud of you on every level! Lots of love, Adelina

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  87. LOVE that you are sharing this even though it sounds emotionally draining. How gut wrenching! Always trust those mommy instincts. I’m happy to hear he’s got the best care. Prayers up for you all & will keep you in my thoughts!

  88. Just got around to reading this post. Good for you for trusting you mama instincts. Glad to know your little man will be okay. Even thought I didn’t know what was going on at the time I was still praying that he would be okay. God Bless!

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